Several weeks later, while being interviewed by a local gallery owner, I was again received as a being with a disorder. This time it was ADD. I needed to gain a better understanding at what these people were seeing because I could not relate and actually went searching for some information. Here are some distinguishing symptoms which I will later refer to as I build my argument and show how these people looking need to ‘Stop Blocking the View” with their labels and projections of themselves or what they think they know.
If you have ADD/ADHD these are some common symptoms of disorganization, impulsivity, and emotional difficulties:
- poor organizational skills (home, office, desk, or car is extremely messy and cluttered)
- tendency to procrastinate
- trouble starting and finishing projects
- chronic lateness
- frequently forgetting appointments, commitments, and deadlines
- constantly losing or misplacing things (keys, wallet, phone, documents, bills)
- underestimating the time it will take you to complete tasks
- frequently interrupt others or talk over them
- have poor self-control
- blurt out thoughts that are rude or inappropriate without thinking
- have addictive tendencies
- act recklessly or spontaneously without regard for consequences
- have trouble behaving in socially appropriate ways (such as sitting still during a long meeting)
- sense of underachievement
- doesn’t deal well with frustration
- easily flustered and stressed out
- irritability or mood swings
- trouble staying motivated
- hypersensitivity to criticism
- short, often explosive, temper
- low self-esteem and sense of insecurity
Retrieved from: http://helpguide.org/mental/adhd_add_adult_symptoms.htm
It is not that I feel a need to defend myself; quite the contrary. What I would like to do is show the human potential that I have achieved doesn’t come from being successful in a worldly sense, but in a zen in flesh sense. Because of the high energy I possess I have been seen as being ‘Wild and Crazy,’ ‘A Free Spirit,’ and probably someone who likes to party. Wrong. I am really too busy living, REALLY living. Don’t get me wrong, I like celebrations, but the contemporary meaning of “party” has never been an interest.
First of all, I will begin with a short bio. Having been born the youngest child in a large family with parents who love to party is my best explanation for my outgoing personality. When the family got together it would become intense, the energy accelerating, and increasingly loud. I have a big voice and I express myself with passion.
So on to the symptoms I do not have. This is not to say there were times in my life where I may have felt overwhelmed or disorganized. I may have blurted out thoughts that were rude or inappropriate or have been stressed out and who doesn’t get a bit sensitive to criticism. I’m a woman and have had mood swings and, while in high school, I suffered low self-esteem but it wasn’t from having ADD. Many of these things came from growing up in dis-function which is another story.
I am extremely organized and on time, finish all the projects I start (and there are a lot of them) and am able to estimate the time it will take for me to complete a task. I do speak from the soul and I am not afraid to say something with passion, but not inappropriately now that I am older. I have no addictions, am more of an achiever, stay calm and patient and love myself. Either I have no clue as to who I am or everyone is blocking their view from truly seeing another person by being in the way. I say this because it is usually the viewers ego and all its smarts that make the determination of the psychological classification (thinking, comparing). These label makers usually add something like, “takes one to know one.” That in itself leaves me questioning and wanting to explain that I am not hyperactive or wild. In actuality, I am very reclusive and quiet, busy creating and letting that creative flow move me.
As our world moves into a new era, we need to recognize this human potential and put it to work. Many young people ‘get it.’ They are multi-taskers, highly intelligent, high speed processors. Like me, they do not fit into the competitive world of the “Baby Boomers” and are already ahead in so many ways and yet are expected to fit into a society of labeling, drugging, and dredging through the “Traditionalists” hype. We still know very little about the human brain and still do not use its full potential. With the influence of technology and its amazingly fast paced growing advances, the brain is growing in potential. There will be tradeoffs, like trading the art of handwriting for shorthand and speed on the keyboard, along with losing the ability to make eye contact or recognize emotion on a face.
It is not hyperactivity and impulsivity that I possess, but rather vital energy and spontaneity. I am living freedom or what I call “Really Living” in a song. It is with non attachment to the need to achieve by balancing the energy to achieve and the energy to be which allows me to create as I do. It is quite amazing and some people are unable to ‘Stop Blocking the View’
So friends out there. I live on vital energy, have no attachments and am not limited. Are you? Zeninflesh.